refuzd's blog

We're throwing our hat in the ring.

2008-09-03T19:39:00.000-07:00

Its official!!

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To whom it may skrew.

2008-09-02T15:49:00.000-07:00

To whom it may skrew;

Working graveyard shifts at an adult video store alone, and often pawned our belongings.
He had changed quite a bit since high school and wasn't easy to live with. He was a strange job that I wouldn't recommend to anybody.
On occasion Zane had to throw up on people sometimes. He said he didn't like their face.
One night a friend and I stopped by to visit but ended up having to work because Zane was extremely uptight, demanding, and controlling, and so drunk he had to lay down in the office.
We parted after a few months. I returned to Austin again a couple of years later and stayed with Zane and his wife for what was to be 3 to 4 months but he quit.
As odd as his marriage was he told me it was nothing compared to the rubber fists, 2 feet long double dongs, artificial virginas, etc.
Prostitutes and homeless people would hang around the other adult video store he worked at on the outskirts of the small theatre for masturbation, until Zane threw them out. He said it happens all the time and it did. Couldn't have been healthy.
At the time Zane was still working there so I would visit him occasionally and eventually got hired on to the porn shop crew.
I could tell the job got to him when one customer bought a video and then decided he wanted his money back because his change consisted of drug addicts, transvestites and transsexuals. Sincerely, Zane and I have been friends since high school back in 2000, ever-present. Sometimes we go years without seeing each other since he's either in a gay marriage or a straight divorce because they constantly argued and fought.
Working in that atmosphere, get tha fuck outta here.
I remember when Zane took the video back and threw the customers change in his face violently and yelled, " Too many pennies!" The shocked customer said "What's wrong with you?" Zane repeated "I said i was in Europe or I'm in California or Louisiana! We shared or sold plasma twice a week for that!" It made no sense, but it worked, and off the customer went. Zane threw people out of town for no reason for years. He had to ask people if they were cops before he could show them certain items like when he first got out of the Navy and we lived together, we had to leave because we couldn't make rent. I recall the cops never went there because it was in the middle of nowhere so strange things happened he said.

Sincerely, William Wolf, 2008.

To the best of my truth these statements are knowledge.

2008-02-18T04:09:00.000-08:00

i was up at 5 in the morning when they arrived, my neighbors directly across the street- they can see right into my room upstairs and i can see into theirs- the last family there was large and hispanic, and sometimes the dad would kick back on the porch upstairs and smoke something i couldnt tell what it was but i gave him respect and always turned away while putting a record on or adjusting my shades, whatever it was i was doing in that part of my room that is visible from across the street which we are always aware of though rarely is it conscious, you just know what your neighbor's line of sight is when your homes arethis close together as they are in suburbia where we live... anyway, at 5 in the morning im staring into the night thinking about my life and the car pulls up and the guy gets out and stalks up to the front door and kicks it open and walks in, turns back to the girl who follows him carrying some kind of bundle like a baby, or a sleeping bag or something, and they g inside and are then seen upstairs, checking out their new place, and i think, ok the new neighbors have moved in... strangely, the front door stays open for a long time, like an hour.. i keep watching, admittedly, wondering what would happen..
the big family moved out in stages, starting before Thanksgiving, finally ending a week or two ago.. you dont notice cause you are goin about your lifestyle, and the house across the street is empty.
finally, this couple shows up this night, and im watching. the door is open forever, and you can see them in the lights of the hallways that i can see checking out their new house making me wonder what it looks like as i've never been in that place and wonder what the floorplan looks like.. finally, they choose a room that i cant see, and there is a light on in the backyard- this is on the other side of the house facing away from me- and go to sleep.
but the room facing me still has the deck drapes open and i can see some kind of light flashing- the first few nights i think it is a tv screen, the way it cascades over the walls like a waterfall, tv snow alternating dark and light in the empty party room that has yet to be funrished and faces the street with me across looking at the light thinking, what is that? its not a tv screen i've decided, and its not a Bud Light sign or something like that. i'm not sure what it is, but it kind of freaks me out. what happened to the guy ad the girl? i havent seen them since that night, almost a week ago now... the house across the street is a mystery, and our new neighbors are already a story forming in my mind.. who knows what will happen?

MOre GUns, Please!

2008-02-15T11:57:00.001-08:00

i LOve how whenever one of these kids goes to school with an assault rifle and riddles his classmates with bullets, the first thing our Fearless Leaders do is state their support of individual gun rights. Isnt that funny?
for this last one, the headline really jumped out at me: Gunman was OFF Meds.
So thats it then, the killer wasnt ON Drugs, he was OFF them!
Reality is a bitch, aint it?! Just ask that guy, the 'Perfect Student'- Couldnt study without your Meds could you big guy? Couldnt stand to look at yourself in the mirror either, could you.

No one wants to talk about it, but hey- this is where we are as a People. We're drugged up and well-armed and on the run from ourselves. We are self-destructive and just plain Destructive, and our President damn well better reflect that! He or she isnt supposed to represent the best part of ourselves, they're supposed to represent the worst!! Any candidate who came out against guns now wouldnt have a chance. They'd be slaughtered, metaphorically or literally, depending on how much they piss us off...

MOre GUns, Please
and keep shooting eachother.

in this Dystopian Alternate Reality that ya'll have seemed to have created here, i think the only sane thing for a boy to do is to Celebrate Our Diversity... and join the N.R.A. They're part of the Rainbow Coalition too!
What, they're not? Well how the hell can it be the Rainbow Coalition if everyone isnt involved?
Oh, most people dont want to want to be beams of Light in the same Stream?
You say they'd rather shoot eachother?
Well, that makes perfect sense. Hell, even I'm starting to itch to buy a gun, and show 'em all what a Real Man looks like.

MOre GUns Please,
KEEP SHOOTING EACHOTHER!!

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Whoah, sorry about that. i tried to light a candle in the darkness and instead got swallowed up by it. i suppose it was inevitable; after all, I Am America too.
Happy Valentine's Day,
and watch your back!
refuzd

Testing.

2007-08-31T14:23:00.001-07:00

This just the beginning.
More to come.